By Arushi Joshi

To best describe it myself I would say a few months ago I had no idea what I was doing in this life, I had no time to pray even though I was idle most of the time. But today I am at the peak of positivity. I feel a connection, what do you want the most right now? Money? Success? Love? Nope. I want more of that positivity.

This incredible sense of confidence that whatever happens, I can deal with it, even if my mind subconsciously goes out of control, an inner power brings me back on the right path. This is my description of spirituality because, to be honest, it is an energy that you feel. If you are lucky it will be constant with you.

That’s why I pray to god “to be with me like this all the time”. My spirituality makes me feel good about myself, about my life, and suddenly I want to pray to, not in order to wish for something. I am trying to maintain a selfless relation with my soul. I don’t expect anything from anyone, I do what I can, however, that doesn’t give me any power to hurt anyway or to judge anyone.

Being a human being is a whole another story, I picture myself many times talking to the supreme god, I ask a lot of questions, but I always ask this one, “how can you be a human without minding your own business?” “is there a special talent to it” Most of the problems arise in this world due to selfish needs, wants, competition, I want to be the best, Why can’t I be rich? I must look more beautiful than anyone, I shall be the one who sets the example. I personally haven’t seen people who are too genuine and humble being a huge personality. I commit such crime myself too. I call it a crime. Because it is the start of destruction.

I went through a lot of changes in life. I am quite young still so hoping that even more changes are on the way, but the earlier you understand life, the better chances you have to deal with the future self. Because many times you ponder upon a past scenario thinking if only you knew that this is what’s gonna happen you would have dealt with it differently, right?

For the sake of being religious you do a lot of things, like fasting but not really fasting you know what I mean, as there is a lot of variety of food invented when you are fasting, which means nothing but not eating your regular spicy food and just eating a little boring yet delicious food for a change. Also, like pilgrimages, or doing “seva” or “selfless deeds” like washing utensils in the temple, cleaning the temple, etc. But when you are a human at the same time, you cannot be spiritually inclined.

A lot of people even doing selfless deeds are often the ones who go through a lot of problems, they always still keep asking “what’s wrong in my life”, you know why? because it was after all not selfless. Do you think it actually can be true, that there are no selfless deeds? Because once you take the credit for it in whatever way, you lose it all. For me, spirituality is a private relation with my god. Where I don’t talk about my problems or I don’t offer service in order to get rid of my problems. I do service but in that service, I create a moment of mindfulness. I can create a space in my spiritual sense where I would dive deep into my own thinking to realize it all very well without even asking for it.

People say that God can solve all your problems, I was finding something difficult and somebody suggested, start reading this scripture or start chanting and your problem will be solved. The power of chanting or reading scripture is not that you are offering a service but you are creating an aura of your life, you are in that space where you will find the solutions, you will focus. It brings a lot of attention to you. It is not as simple as it may sound. It needs a lot of hard work to achieve such mindfulness.

When you open the doors in your mind through channelizing your energy through spirituality you are actually letting things pass. You aren’t holding up there anything, you can feel the change, you can breathe.

When I was a little kid, my grandmother told me the story of Lord Hanuman. She told me that reading Hanuman Chalisa will solve all your problems. I was so young, that I hardly had any real problems in my life, I am sure my problem at that time would have been something really silly, so I started reading Hanuman Challis at a very young age. I actually misunderstood the word-“sat” in “Jo sat baar paath kar koi Chutti bandi mahasukh hoi” as in number 7 but it was in Sanskrit and it means 100 times. It meant, ” whoever reads and chants Hanuman Chalisa for 100 times, will get freed from worldly bondage and will get great happiness”. I finished doing 7 times, then some years later I actually decided to start understanding the scriptures, Vedanta and such devotional hymns. I came to know the meaning of each and every word in Hanuman Chalisa. But that’s how most of us are like, we can do things for the sake of doing it, but it is important to understand the meaning of it, to apply it in this real life. I want to be like Lord Hanuman, “serve as many as you can”.

Hola Amigos,

Espero que estes bien (that’s “I hope you all are doing fine”)

Well, Scientists do know what it is, a mere combination of biochemicals in brain. But here is the confusion if love is love what is lust? Some people say there are different forms of love, someone can fall in love by a deepest 3o min conversation and 6 second of staring into each other’s eyes. That’s quite thoughtful. I have never tried it, but I tried connecting and what are the consequences of having a straight 30 min detail orientated deepest conversation with a stranger and yet in the next phases you get bored. Oh did I mention that it was on Facebook? so I guess staring is also important, very important. Lust can be a dangerous thing. The moment you want to get as close as possible to an attractive person from the opposite sex, remember it is lust and not love.

To be honest, I have never experience a connection through eyes. I might have find someone confident, I might have develop a friendship but the concept of actually building a long term attachment in your mind just by looking into someone’s eyes, that sounds really magical. Let me tell you what I first fall for, I fall for personalities. I have always misunderstood a part of someone to be whole of him. I have regretted that often. Indeed it has even developed some trust issues in me. I have a story, or stories of different kind of experiences. But I have never found true love, I have come close to it though.

Now a days I have seen people at points where they come so close, they almost get married. It has become so much common to get divorced as soon as you get married, people delete their social media posts after break up. I am quite disappointed on such kind of growing tendency. I am scared that someday it could be me.

Coming back to the phenomenon of love, when I was quite young I guess just few years ago, I use to say I will never get married. Marriage is for fools. I want to become an independent working women. In my journey of life so far, there is one thing I surely have understood, you can pursue and become anything you want to, you can get the freedom at any point of life, but finding true love or a love that would last, it is the most difficult thing to achieve. There are people who would just marry anyone for the sake of marrying, there is someone who would marry for money, someone who was forced to get married, someone who just got married I don’t know maybe in Vegas.

And then there are also people who were left by the only person they ever loved, they end up into a certain type of emptiness, people who once started a journey of love would end up into solitude, people who would still be hopeful, people who have been just inspired from other’s love stories, people who just wants to respond to inner fantasies. It could be billion stories, billion hearts, billion people. Yet somewhere in this world right now there is a person like me who wants the same thing as me. LOVE, an honest one, the one where everything is just smooth, comforting, like home, like loving yourself.

Some great writers have said love is uncertain, flawless, something that makes us connect with romance through music, romance through rains, have I ever wished kissing in rain? yes. Or cuddling under the same blanket with the smell of freshly brewed coffee on winter nights? yes, playing with my hairs softly? yes. Dancing like Govinda (now thats called variety isn’t it).

But what is love anyway? Do I want it or does it really exists? Only time would say. At least there is one love that I would always keep doing and it is none other than self love!!

Hola,  Amigos!!!!

Welcome to an another attempt of calling oneself a writer and pretending that I have been a writer since ages, I am so so so much experienced that I can even beat well known authors like Chetan Bhagat (no offence Sir, I am a big fan of you work), so this is it, my masterpiece exclusively on WordPress, haha! Because obviously I am too cheap for my own website, so here I am taking advantage of a free platform, displaying my talent and welcoming all the constructive criticism, in short I want to learn.

How can you decide that you can be a good writer? or even that you are already a writer? or even sometimes when you come up with a really creative unique, slightly plagiarised caption for your selfie does this question pop up to your mind, “what if I become a writer?” and how do you answer well may be by trying on it on some nice morning.

Dear amigos so far one thing is absolutely clear from my first paragraph, that I am self critical person, sometimes really brutal (you will see that in my future posts mostly) and with my witty “uncommon” common sense, basically I am a younger version of Bhaskor Banerjee of the movie PIKU which is my favourite film by the way. So just a heads up if you are reading this, it is going to be long so if you want to quit reading already feel free to do so but then never visit my site ever again, because my write ups will always be long, see I am critical right? I like talking, conversing, spilling out words as if I am collaborating with the Universe. As if I am completely making sense and the breeze around me is telling me “you go girl”.

Okay, so back to writing part! Well, I don’t know, I feel like people are writing way too much, from interesting to completely boring things, like you guys can agree how we find an interesting book and it becomes boring for us too soon, but yeah people are writing about everything online/offline, on paper, on walls, on train stations. But the worst kind of things I have ever seen is “10 ways to impress a guy-with pictures”, and no I am not pointing out to WikiHow because some times even they make sense, what about this, “How to make money in your spare time” and so on. The point is where is truth? Who speaks truth? I can say a lot on books because trust me I have seen a lot of them, I work part time at a library. Now a days it is hard to find a classic one. Things like this, “52 productive things to do in your lunch break” still helps but duh? who wants to waste time in productive stuff in the lunch break!

I am a simple girl who is trying hard on becoming a writer, to write captivating stuff for her readers, but what I really want to do with this platform is write truth. Except for I want to learn Spanish and I am a Chemical Technologist, I am a woman, I don’t have exciting stories to tell because I am in the process of becoming and I am not a big fan of “endings” either. I don’t know what it really means to be a writer but I know that when the world has shut its doors on me, when there is so much noise that I can’t even hear my own heartbeats, when people are too busy to not listen to me, or when I am really boring that I am not even able to entertain anyone, I hold on to words, I hold on to truth. I write. I am sure may be this is how it feels to be a writer, may be!

So Dear Amigos if you like my talking and I hope it was not painful for you to read then please let me know that how I made you feel, Through likes and comments! And if I am not asking for too much Please do share! Thank you (with Canadian Gratitude)

and remember, "Vivere una vita bella"- live a beautiful life. 

See you later, alligator 🙂